(8:34:00 PM)
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my 140th post had to be a bad..long one.
yes, she might be a peer leader once and first aid-kit would never forget her, etc etc.
she might be a very well known leader in aes but let me tell you this, she isn't exactly what you think she is at home, at all. eeeeee! i'm so disgusted by her attitude which just pisses me off.
it's a public holiday today. so she's at home, being her very true self - a potato couch.
i had no homework so i joined her with her movie marathon while blogging. i had my eyeballs stucked at two screens, literally.
the weather seemed so nice that i fell asleep. gah, it was raining and it's cold.
what's the greatest thing to do? ugh.
then i heard my mom and eldest sister, ain shouting.
my mom was scolding her and so i went back to sleep.
after a few seconds, i started to hear ain shouting my name. whining to my mom.
she was shouting as if someone's raping her. she shouted
" abeh irah tu. laptop tu on. dia ingat dia nya laptop ke "
she was really shouting very loud la. then i ignored her.
i went back to sleep. she hit me again, and again, stil.. i ignored and went back to sleep.
she hit me again.
me: IT'S NOT YOUR LAPTOP. IT'S MINE.
she: it's dad's.
WTH. how does she know. so i quickly went to off my lappy. then.
she to mom: BERHENTIKAN DIA SEKOLAH JE MAK ! which means.. (just let her quite school)
i was really pissed by then. she was referring to me using MY LAPPY too much. but who is she to ask my mom to stop me frm going to sch?
is she my dad? she's not the one who pays me sch fees?
gah. this whole incident happened because of her, not accepting the fact that she got scolded from mom, right. can't you see it? my mom was scolding her and out of the blue, she started to ''dig'' for my mistakes and scold me. it all could have been avoided. i'm actually innocent, okay.
this doesn't make any sense it all. not forgiving her. not forgiving this mistake.
how can i ever forgive and forget this when it's not the first time? you mean she scolded me by accident, and that i should forgive her? nu-uh. no way. she probably just vented anger on me.
but does she know how i was feeling at that moment? does she know if i had other problems and she shouldn't be bothering me? why does this always have to happen? it could have been avoided all along if she'd be more sensible, understanding and get a control of herself.
i'm small. young. only twelve, not yet thirteen. but she has been a twelve year-old before.
she does know that even small lil' kids have feelings and the right to say something. i cried and i cried. the only thing i was thinking about at that point of time was talking to bestie clement and sweetie alane. haaaaaaas.
okay. enough 'bout stupid crap like that. i'm feeling a-o-kay now.
talked to amin 'bout that crap instead of bestie.
he was busy at church and didn't celebrate his b'day. poor lil' thing.
so my grandparents are here. staying overnight.
they actually made my day! they brought nasi briyani from arab street!
wheeee. people who know me the best should know it's my fave.
it was nice. had two plates of it.
nana off to plaza. probable, shahril or the usual gang : - lembu,sistacutie,purpler.
okay. i'm watching a telemovie now. a spoooky one at suria. catch it, yeh! (:
dulu paku
sekarang papan
dulu bapak aku
sekarang bukan
- composed by my grandaddy. (:
translated.
nails,then.
wood,now.
you were my dad,then.
not,now.
it's amazing. it's a rhyming poem if it's in malay though.
and he spoke in boyan and java to me and mom. i understood. nana did not!
<3